Wow! You’re on to a powerful start! I recognize myself so much in your process. My story is different but the mental work is the same. Great post! Keep going! ❤️
Fascinating and, dare I say, entertaining plus much to digest. My mother was unmarried when I was born in 1944 and I recognise much of what you say and I was 62 when she died in 2006. I have written about our relationship over the years and have many letters she wrote to me I cannot bring myself to reread (yet). What I still have with my mother I describe as a ‘jigsaw relationship’ I have yet to put together. There are times when I feel that I am physically my mother. It is an odd experience others struggle to understand. I do believe we can inherit trauma. I always have since I trained as an animal technician looking after rats in my first job. DNA now offers some understanding as to how this happens to me at least. Keep at it and I am glad I am able to tag along on this journey of yours. Regards 🐰
"there are times when I feel that I am physically my mother" - I love this Robert. I feel like I know what you mean. Inherited trauma is a very real thing (sometimes referred to as "generational trauma" or "ancestral trauma"). I think I like "inherited" best. Not all family heirlooms are prized possessions.😅
The animal technician job sounds very interesting!
Somewhere in my paperbagstories.substack.com archive you can find this ‘poem’ by me, which will tell you about my animal technician days (and how I became an anti-vivisectionist:
This is awesome progress!! I haven’t been in the GNI group much (I decided to make a life change and am heading to grad school at the Center for Cartoon Studies!) but I’m happy I found your Substack!
Wow! You’re on to a powerful start! I recognize myself so much in your process. My story is different but the mental work is the same. Great post! Keep going! ❤️
Thank you so much Ann! I loved reading about how you got into cartooning over the past year 😌
Fascinating and, dare I say, entertaining plus much to digest. My mother was unmarried when I was born in 1944 and I recognise much of what you say and I was 62 when she died in 2006. I have written about our relationship over the years and have many letters she wrote to me I cannot bring myself to reread (yet). What I still have with my mother I describe as a ‘jigsaw relationship’ I have yet to put together. There are times when I feel that I am physically my mother. It is an odd experience others struggle to understand. I do believe we can inherit trauma. I always have since I trained as an animal technician looking after rats in my first job. DNA now offers some understanding as to how this happens to me at least. Keep at it and I am glad I am able to tag along on this journey of yours. Regards 🐰
"there are times when I feel that I am physically my mother" - I love this Robert. I feel like I know what you mean. Inherited trauma is a very real thing (sometimes referred to as "generational trauma" or "ancestral trauma"). I think I like "inherited" best. Not all family heirlooms are prized possessions.😅
The animal technician job sounds very interesting!
Somewhere in my paperbagstories.substack.com archive you can find this ‘poem’ by me, which will tell you about my animal technician days (and how I became an anti-vivisectionist:
LAB RAT HEROES
Onto the roof under grey skies,
Into the hut, cages inside,
Pink eyes, yellow stained fur,
One of many, but still a lab rat,
He looks at me unknowingly,
Only on his last journey,
Will he see the sky,
Down the stairs, Neck to be broken,
Dissected and dead,
At last he is free,
My lab rat,
And me? I am diminished,
In the end, ashamed, I walk away,
Animal heroes, every one, lab rats.
Robert Howard, Animal Technician 1959-64
This is so cool, Delaney! Excited to follow your journey!
Subscribed! I am eager to see where this goes.
thanks so much David! excited to have you along :)
So amazing! Thanks for sharing!!
This is awesome progress!! I haven’t been in the GNI group much (I decided to make a life change and am heading to grad school at the Center for Cartoon Studies!) but I’m happy I found your Substack!
That is really exciting!! And still a very real kind of progress! Thanks for finding me here, I'm excited to follow along on your studies!😊